Posted by: Shira Danin | November 5, 2009

Finally, the Weekend

I haven’t written since Saturday.

It’s weird; it feels like I haven’t written for months.

It was a hard week. And yesterday was exceptionally hard.

7 hours in the university.

I didn’t eat lunch because I couldn’t decide what I wanted. I did want something healthy and the really healthy things were too far from my class room. (Too far for me to walk). This just added to my sadness/gloominess/anger. The fibro kept me from being able to feed myself.

The last three hours of the day I sat in a class frozen with an industrial Air Conditioner.

Everyone suffered from the excessive cooling but I had a unique suffering.

I felt the pain radiating from inside my bones all the way out and through my skin.

Cold doesn’t go well with Fibro fun.

Due to my suffering, I spent an hour in class on the verge of tears.

After 15 minutes of walking (which normally takes 3 minutes) I got to my car. I sat in my car and cried.

Then I got home; I cried and screamed some more.

I had half an hour to change clothes and bandages and go to my Fibrogym class.

I was still on verge of crying and broke out weeping in the reception (in the Fibrogym).

The secretary didn’t do anything wrong. I just couldn’t handle communicating and hearing “you’re too young to feel like shit” (really!, thanks for the update).

Only during exercising, I got my smile back thanks to my fibro friends’ understanding. I felt I wasn’t alone even though I couldn’t do everything like everyone else. There was stuff I couldn’t do , but I wasn’t the only one who couldn’t, so I really wasn’t alone.

On the way back I was on the phone with Tomer. I started getting teary again from my frustrations. He is supportive, relaxing and loving as usual. Lucky me!

He got me a cooking book for Fibromyalgia and two cute and funny magnets (the magnets are in the picture below)

On another note, Tomer also got into health mode and is glad I make all healthy food. I enjoy cooking for both of us especially when it involves more veggies and less pasta (white flour is out completely).

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In addition to the magnets there’s our Guitar Hero band name and my new motto in life (on my prettiest bandage) – FIBRO FUN!

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